Friday, November 28, 2008

All the best !!!

The three months for this sem can be said passed quite fast and also quite slow(confusing) and i totally cant believe that Jun already left kch and go back to her home town and next sem she will transfer to Aus already and honestly speaking suddenly i feel i lost another friend at SUTS and also feel sorry for her coz i didnt do much to help her.Due to she left today and yet today i still have another paper for the final exam so i really dont have chance to farewell for her . Anyway , AlL tHE B3ST

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

" Fe3liNgleSs "

i started to know why sometime a person will choose not to say and also not to do anything . They said there should be a story behind in everyone life and what i can confirm is not every stories end with happy ending. Maybe is due to final exam week and also that incident happened at the right time , i started to really feel i reached another stage of my life time this is the " feelingless " stage or what i called " zombie " all time

Thursday, November 20, 2008

能活多一天就一天

At last , she asked me what kind of response that i wanted from her but i dont dare to demand anything from her because i dont deserve for anything and i always feel the One really kind to me for letting me to see the world till now and i should relieve for that

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

what should i do ?

Today i send her few songs and she just accepted it and honestly speaking i really hope that atlease she will say something but in the end she didnt say anything and i also dont dare to say anything because i dont know what she feel according to her and i really dont dare to guess what she think by the last sms reply of "happy days" and harshly speaking now i really feel i m totally extra especially for her (haiz , i started to feel i m such a bad guy coz if nope how come i deserved such responses) How good if suddenly got another "she" that will divert my attention from her !!!!!!!!

Solution ?

"She said she maybe know that . i think this is basically the end of the story because i dont think she will really care for what i feel now " this is what in my mind now and i should say actually one year ago i should .............. but i am st**** enough to still lay a hope on her. They said when doing anything , a person should have determination on it and what i feel now is i think i really tried my best to keep her happy although she rejected me. However, with what she did in the pass one year i realise that i am too extra for her .All of my friends said i should wake up by now and after thinking for so long i think i have came out with a solution to pacify myself that is i will keep my role to keep her feel happy until the day someone will continue my role and i hope by that time i will be given a notification to stop my hope on her.

Sunday, November 16, 2008

By noW i sHoUld und3rst@nd

At 1st , i promised her that i will tell her what happened and that was during her final examination but when she came back to here i decided not to tell her what happened. Due to the pressure for work load is too high recently , i decided to write a post named 阴影 to let her know what happened and by now i m not sure whether she have read it or not but for sure i think i know the answer already . And i should say " i choose to tell but she choose not to know " that all and i think is time to start to forget about her

Cramped

Two days , we grouped at WC house to do the Urban Water Resources assignment (last minute work) and we stayed at there till 330 am on the next morning and on the morning i only have about 3 hours sleeping time and yet my leg cramped. haha , whenever i shout like hell at nite or morning time when everyone was sleeping then my parents will come like paramedics to rescue my leg because they know i have the habits of cramp once in two to three months. The worst thing happened in the morning , most of the presentation groups was questioned badly by the DBKU officer and i should say he is totally irresponsible for what he said. That my saturday XP

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

。。。阴影。。。

最近我开始发现
我还活在过去里的阴影里
因为她的一句“你永远不会是我等待的那个人,现在不是,未来也不是
我再也不敢对未来有希望
很多朋友都说我很悲观
其实我并不想这样子
我有尝试过想重新开始
把一切忘掉
但我并没有那么幸运
我只是想要好好喜欢一个人
我更想对她说一颗心只有一份永久 给了谁就无法回收
但我更怕被她再次拒绝
因为她的一句话
我就从此沉默在绝望的迷宫里
我相信如果在未来的日子里
我再也没有找到能让我值得珍惜的那个人
我也许只能永远活在记忆里
等待消失

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Love is a Di****** ?

Recently there are two of my friends one of them is a gal which i think i better dont mention her name coz i dont want to die before i really have the love feeling with any gal. Last time when i asked her anything by this starting "L**** , can u borrow me the tute for the subject........" she will say k no matter she complete it or not but dont noe y since a guy is hardly tackling her since the beginning of this sem and we all already feel that the guy is her bf already but she still dont want to admit it till now . However my main concern is now her reaction when i wanted to borrow anything and now this is her reaction " i cant borrow u coz i not yet complete" and just forget about it . Actually what in my mind is i just wanted to take a look on what u have done only since i saw u did more than me and i dont mind is complete or not but u seems not really willing to borrow the tute to me like last time (sigh) . Another guy which is one of the groupmate for many assignment also started to change and they told me is he is trying to court one of our friend wow . Honestly speaking i also quite confuse should i believe that or not and what i can confirm is he really changed. The way he speak to me really different from last time and the way he handling his assignment also weird and from what i see and heard he seems to be put more effort on the assignment he is doing now with the gal that he wanted to court . Harshly speaking there is no one wanted to back stab him for what he have done (on the effort for courting gal) but atlease he should not left too many thing for the assignments that i need to cover for him especially in last minute and yet he still treat me like that like i m the one talked back of him (Sigh again). For conclusion, i believe love is a beautiful thing but how come the two cases seems to be Love is a Di****** ?

Monday, November 10, 2008

你不是真正的快乐

你不是真正的快乐


人群中哭着

你只想变成透明的颜色

你再也不会梦或痛或心动了

你已经决定了

你已经决定了

你静静忍着紧紧把昨天在拳心握着

而回忆越是甜就是越伤人了

越是在手心留下密密麻麻深深浅浅的刀割

你不是真正的快乐

你的笑只是你穿的保护色

你决定不恨了也决定不爱了

把你的灵魂关在永远锁上的躯壳

这世界笑了

於是你合群的一起笑了

当生存是规则不是你的选择

於是你含着眼泪飘飘荡荡跌跌撞撞的走着

你不是真正的快乐

你的笑只是你穿的保护色

你决定不恨了也决定不爱了

把你的灵魂关在永远锁上的躯壳

你不是真正的快乐

你的伤从不肯完全的癒合

我站在你左侧却像隔着银河

难道就真的抱着遗憾一直到老了

然後才後悔着

你不是真正的快乐

你的笑只是你穿的保护色

你决定不恨了也决定不爱了

把你的灵魂关在永远锁上的躯壳

你不是真正的快乐

你的伤从不肯完全的癒合

我站在你左侧却像隔着银河

难道就真的抱着遗憾一直到老了

你值得真正的快乐

你应该脱下你穿的保护色

为什麽失去了还要被惩罚呢

能不能就让悲伤全部结束在此

刻重新开始活着

Sunday, November 9, 2008

Alfred's Birthday at Happy Valley

Alfred celebrated his birthday at Happy Valley . There about 30 of his friends went to the party and i didnt really believe few of us left Happy Valley by almost 12 am. While all of them busying drinking few types of Vodka and etc , i was sitting there doing nothing and i only drink few drops of those liquor with the mixture of sprite. Gary told me something that will happen to all of us that stepped into the civil engineering field and i knew that since long time ago just he added in something that should be an advice for all gals that is all gals must atlease know how to drink some of the liquor in order not easily cheated by guys when they go to work next time (infact he is quite right because there are many cases happened already).





("Chicken" is one of the Alfred's gift)

Friday, November 7, 2008

Normally it is like tis

Normally when i lost interest on "something" that i liked before ,the "something" will always appear and also disappear in fornt of me and if i decided to have interest on the "something " for the second time then the "something" will disappeared again or owned by others and i should say by right now i should started to know my destiny that set by The One and harshly speaking if this is my destiny then i dont think i have any choice beside fulfill it and also accept it .


JFYI : Normally my brain will be running " hair wire "during the end of the year due to the assignments and also final exam , haha XP( not funny)

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

"Snatched away"

There are many stories about a guy like a girl but there is another guy who try to "snatch" the girl from the very 1st guy eventhough they are in relationship and the second guy seems to be succeed to do so . Harshly speaking if anything like this happened three years ago , for sure i will feel that the second guy should be blamed but nowadays , it seems to be too many cases like this happened already and people around nowadays really feel nothing wrong to do so. There are about two to three friends who told me some of their theory and their feeling about this and one their thinking is "there is no rule such as 1st come 1st serve in love " which also means if u are the 1st one who like a girl it doesnt means the second guy will have no right to "snatch" the girl away from you . Another friend told me that "there is no right or wrong in love" . And some of them even said if the girl u like or love being "snatched away" by another guy it means you have no skills to maintain the relationship. In my opinion , this is an open ended question which has no answer but i do believe different people will have different opinion . However , i think those who have the same thinking like "there is no rule such as 1st come 1st serve in love" and also "there is no right or wrong in love" will have the clearer feeling about that when the snatching cases happened to the girl or the guy that they really love in their life .

JFYI : I NEVER HAVE NO RIGHT TO SAY THE THEORY IS TOTALLY RIGHT OR WRONG SINCE ALL OF THE GIRLS THAT I HAVE FEELING ON THEM ONLY SHOW TWO KIND OF REACTION TO ME THAT ARE REJECTION WHICH CONSIST OF DIRECTLY OR INDIRECTLY AND ALSO ANOTHER REACTION IS FOUND OR BEING COURTED BY ANOTHER GUY . HOWEVER I DO BELIEVE THE THEORY THAT "RICH ALWAYS BECOME RICH BUT POOR ALWAYS MAINTAIN POOR IN LIFE " WHICH ALSO CAN BE RELATED TO " THOSE WHO ALWAYS HAVE GIRLFRIENDS WILL ALWAYS HAVE NEW GIRLFRIENDS BUT THOSE WHO NEVER SUCCEED WILL KEEP ON FAILING IN RELATIONSHIP MATTER"

爱一人,但别让自己为一种伤害

如果你不爱一个人,
请放手.
好让别人有机会爱她.
如果你爱的人放弃了你,
请放开自己,
好让自己有机会爱别人.
有的东西你再喜欢也不会属于你的,
有的东西你再留恋也注定要放弃的.

人生中有许多种 .
但别让自己为一种伤害.
有些缘分是注定要失去的,
有些缘分是永远都不会有好结果的,
爱一个人不一定要拥有,
但拥有一个人就一定要好好的去爱她.
男人哭了是因为他真的爱了.
女人哭了是因为她真的放弃了.

如果真诚是一种伤害,
我选择谎言;
如果谎言一种伤害,
我选择沉默;
如果沉默是一种伤害,
我选择离开.

如果失去是苦,
你怕不怕付出 ,
如果迷乱是苦,
你会不会选择结束,
如果追求是苦,
你会不会选择执迷不悟 ,
如果分离是苦,
你要向谁倾诉,
好多事情都是后来才看清楚,
好多事情当时一点也不觉得苦!!!!

Monday, November 3, 2008

Regarding the songs in the 夏雨诗 ep

I never really listen to the XIn Guang Yi bang songs except Yang Chong Wei and also Yoga songs. Somehow , recently the XIn Guang Shi Sao except Yoga will come out with their Ep and i just realise Peter Pan voice really touching and this Ep really worth to listen to. I rearrange the sequence of the four songs . Firstly, the 心里的狮子 is a song about a person who need to face a lots of Chanllenges and also obstacles to reach his or her destination and this is just like all of our life ".....有陪伴的人不害怕 不害怕的人最潇洒.... " really meaningful coz for sure the person that got another person to accompany him or her wont be really scare of challenges just like a guy or a gal need his or her life partner. Secondly , 夏雨诗 is a song about a guy that broke off wif his gf and then started to miss the gal back . ".......没有了妳叮咛的日子 耳朵总感觉怅然若失 生活上来了又去得了又失是妳给我扶持 不断寻觅错过了几次从来不知爱近在咫尺 回头发现熬过这些日子总有妳的影子........ " is the way he expressed his feeling and he found out that after the gal is gone he started to miss the everything of the gal did for him. Thirdly , 我和妳从未分手 is the song about the guy who expressed his feeling of thinking back the gal and he really hope he never broke off with the gal .This lyrics".......我和妳从未分手 妳住在我心中 谁也不能把妳赶走 一颗心只有一份永久 给了谁就无法回收........" really touching people because i do believe that if a person really love someone for sure his or her heart just like giving to another his or her another one already and it is very hard to take it back .Lastly , 老夫老妻 is the song for the old couple and the song really romantic if u really notice the songs lyrics"...... 时间的手 牵著我们往哪走 走到哪里都有妳陪我 ....." and i believe this is the life everyone hope for next time . For the lump sum , these songs just like a life circle if u really notice it . Afterall the most touching lyrics for me is " ...一颗心只有一份永久 给了谁就无法回收..."

Sunday, November 2, 2008

夏雨诗 ep




心里的狮子


一夕改变的命运

一夜长大的必须

渺小的自己 假装平静

巨大的孤寂 却骚动不已

我们紧握著手心

眼睛微笑成星星

在子夜轮替 守护指引

外面太冰冷 就披上风衣

带著站在心里的狮子

穿过更像丛林的城市

没有意志 就没有钥匙

能打开未来做最想做的事

跟著跑在心里的狮子

优雅但却勇敢地尝试

拥有支持 才拥有天使

完成我一个人做不到的事

一夕改变的命运

一夜长大的必须

渺小的自己 假装平静

巨大的孤寂 却骚动不已

我们紧握著手心 眼睛微笑成星星

在子夜轮替 守护指引

外面太冰冷 就披上风衣

带著站在心里的狮子

穿过更像丛林的城市

没有意志 就没有钥匙

能打开未来做最想做的事

跟著跑在心里的狮子

优雅但却勇敢地尝试

拥有支持 才拥有天使

完成我一个人做不到的事

有陪伴的人不害怕

不害怕的人最潇洒

只要迈的步伐够大

被貼的標籤會飛走吧

带著站在心里的狮子

穿过更像丛林的城市

没有意志 就没有钥匙

能打开未来做最想做的事

跟著跑在心里的狮子

优雅但却勇敢地尝试

拥有支持 才拥有天使

完成我一个人做不到的事



夏雨诗

等候在骤来的夏夜暴雨时间突然静止

滂沱的雨势中停泊两段迂回着的心事

忽然间所有的谈笑风生瞬间嘎然而止

靠着我挡着妳风雨之中不让妳被淋湿

我们在这个城市流浪多少日子

从来没有想到有人能够分享妳倾覆的心事

没有了妳叮咛的日子

耳朵总感觉怅然若失生

活上来了又去得了又失是妳给我扶持

不断寻觅错过了几次从来不知爱近在咫尺

回头发现熬过这些日子总有妳的影子

孤独在各自的人生旅途安静或是飞驰

遇见了彼此后两个灵魂不再患得患失

有些话想启齿欲言又止妳耐心等我解释

微笑着不说话把我抱住让我像个孩子

在光阴这趟车上

浪费了多少日子

遇见妳却让过去所有的痛楚通通被稀释

没有了妳叮咛的日子

耳朵总感觉怅然若失

生活上来了又去得了又失是妳给我扶持

不断寻觅错过了几次从来不知爱近在咫尺

回头发现熬过这些日子总有妳的影子

没有了妳倾诉的日子耳朵就感觉怅然若失

生活上来了又去得了又失妳是我的坚持

陪我同游余生的日子

就算走到了穷途末日天涯咫尺在人生的白纸

同愉快地写诗

天涯咫尺在人生的白纸

同愉快地写诗


我和妳从未分手

心是片土地 我是一个园丁

种一朵花叫做爱情

呵护著不离不弃

当花季远去 眼泪带我旅行

妳好吗 我好想妳

常常写信寄给回忆

我和妳从未分手

妳住在我心中

谁也不能把妳赶走

一颗心只有一份永久

给了谁就无法回收

我和妳从未分手

妳活在我爱中 不准人来人往挑拨

一个错要花几倍伤痛

才能扭转时空 重回感动 重回笑容 手牵手

空空的夜空 城市燃起灯火

每一盏灯一种寂寞

愿妳幸福别漂流

蓝蓝的忧愁 搬进我的生活

越想放手越是紧握

越往前走越是回头

我和妳从未分手 妳住在我心中

谁也不能把妳赶走

一颗心只有一份永久

给了谁就无法回收

我和妳从未分手

妳活在我爱中

不准人来人往挑拨

一个错要花几倍伤痛

才能扭转时空 重回感动 重回笑容 手牵手

我没用 多没用 我推开窗户思念一直推不走

我在梦里掉了一个梦

誰撿到告訴我還給我 別沒收

我和妳从未分手 妳住在我心中

谁也不能把妳赶走

一颗心只有一份永久

给了谁就无法回收

我和妳从未分手 妳活在我爱中

不准人来人往挑拨

一个错要花几倍伤痛

才能扭转时空

重回感动 重回笑容 手牵手


老夫老妻

我能为妳试著聊星座

妳却不肯陪我看棒球

从前会计较谁付出的多 现在却变成乐在其中

时间的手 牵著我们慢慢走

终於找到和谐的节奏

我不再浪漫 妳也不再温柔

却能异口同声的说想吃些什麼

贴心的小动作 尽在不言中

默契随著时间更深厚

原来老夫老妻真不错

我做的饭妳嫌西嫌东

妳开车时换我变萝唆

生活中的芝麻和绿豆

淡是淡些回味却无穷

时间的手 牵著我们往哪走 走到哪里都有妳陪我

我不在浪漫 妳也不在温柔

却能同时欢呼说今晚星星好多

很幸福的感受 尽在不言中

白头发的情人和朋友 原来老夫老妻真不错

我少了拥抱 妳也少了撒娇

却能成为彼此最坚定的依靠

再牵著妳的手 少了点悸动

却多了份安心和感动

原来老夫老妻真不错 穷

ProblemS ?

I dont noe should i consider this as a serious problem but definitely for me it is a problem and i dont think my problem wont be a problem to anyone who is single or never has gf before now and before(i guess those who read it carefully should noe what is the problem already). All my friends reaction when i mentioned this problem is " dont think too much " or " are u too desperate to have gf ? " . Harshly speaking if i dont think much now i scare next time i dont have any chance to think anymore and the second question comment will be i dont want to end up alone next time (but it seems i also cant do much liao after ended up dissappointed for many time by not even have a chance to start anything ) because i never believe what u all theory which is " try to worry next time lal and also go gf when you are working lal". I definitely think this only work in 20 years ago and it wont work for now and also future . I dont think all teenagers now will be brave enough to really take this action by not really in relationship with someone they like now,despite, they hope that when they started to step into the work field they will found someone they really love or someone that really love them ( i noe this sill can be happened but the probabilty for this to happen is quite low lol in this era). From what i analysis , nowadays the average age for a teenagers to be in relationship for the very 1st time is 16 years old. If they are lucky enough for sure they will continue the relationship until happily ever after (i believe the probabilty for this to happen is higher than the previous probability). Then if every couple also ended happily ever affer like that then how about those still dont have gf and also "plan to have gf when they working wow" for sure those who follow that principle will get nothing lol and then how lel ?( maybe this is an open ended question but i still believe my analysis still will hit some correct points )

Saturday, November 1, 2008

Another time again

haha , another time again , i noticed that the someone that i feel very cute will have bf soon or by now and i think the curse on me is quite true already (only some of my friends noe that). Harshly speaking i think i have the right to feel sad althogh this is not the 1st time happened to me coz all friends know my zero record of having gf ( such a failure ) . Anyway , today swinburne carnival really not much people and i was stupid enough not to take pictures after i received two impaction which are i also lazy to mention coz i mentioned already in the opening and the another one is the UWR project thing .Speechless