All the best !!!

The three months for this sem can be said passed quite fast and also quite slow(confusing) and i totally cant believe that Jun already left kch and go back to her home town and next sem she will transfer to Aus already and honestly speaking suddenly i feel i lost another friend at SUTS and also feel sorry for her coz i didnt do much to help her.Due to she left today and yet today i still have another paper for the final exam so i really dont have chance to farewell for her . Anyway , AlL tHE B3ST

" Fe3liNgleSs "

i started to know why sometime a person will choose not to say and also not to do anything . They said there should be a story behind in everyone life and what i can confirm is not every stories end with happy ending. Maybe is due to final exam week and also that incident happened at the right time , i started to really feel i reached another stage of my life time this is the " feelingless " stage or what i called " zombie " all time

能活多一天就一天

At last , she asked me what kind of response that i wanted from her but i dont dare to demand anything from her because i dont deserve for anything and i always feel the One really kind to me for letting me to see the world till now and i should relieve for that

what should i do ?

Today i send her few songs and she just accepted it and honestly speaking i really hope that atlease she will say something but in the end she didnt say anything and i also dont dare to say anything because i dont know what she feel according to her and i really dont dare to guess what she think by the last sms reply of "happy days" and harshly speaking now i really feel i m totally extra especially for her (haiz , i started to feel i m such a bad guy coz if nope how come i deserved such responses) How good if suddenly got another "she" that will divert my attention from her !!!!!!!!

Solution ?

"She said she maybe know that . i think this is basically the end of the story because i dont think she will really care for what i feel now " this is what in my mind now and i should say actually one year ago i should .............. but i am st**** enough to still lay a hope on her. They said when doing anything , a person should have determination on it and what i feel now is i think i really tried my best to keep her happy although she rejected me. However, with what she did in the pass one year i realise that i am too extra for her .All of my friends said i should wake up by now and after thinking for so long i think i have came out with a solution to pacify myself that is i will keep my role to keep her feel happy until the day someone will continue my role and i hope by that time i will be given a notification to stop my hope on her.

By noW i sHoUld und3rst@nd

At 1st , i promised her that i will tell her what happened and that was during her final examination but when she came back to here i decided not to tell her what happened. Due to the pressure for work load is too high recently , i decided to write a post named 阴影 to let her know what happened and by now i m not sure whether she have read it or not but for sure i think i know the answer already . And i should say " i choose to tell but she choose not to know " that all and i think is time to start to forget about her

Cramped

Two days , we grouped at WC house to do the Urban Water Resources assignment (last minute work) and we stayed at there till 330 am on the next morning and on the morning i only have about 3 hours sleeping time and yet my leg cramped. haha , whenever i shout like hell at nite or morning time when everyone was sleeping then my parents will come like paramedics to rescue my leg because they know i have the habits of cramp once in two to three months. The worst thing happened in the morning , most of the presentation groups was questioned badly by the DBKU officer and i should say he is totally irresponsible for what he said. That my saturday XP

。。。阴影。。。

最近我开始发现
我还活在过去里的阴影里
因为她的一句“你永远不会是我等待的那个人，现在不是，未来也不是”
我再也不敢对未来有希望
很多朋友都说我很悲观
其实我并不想这样子
我有尝试过想重新开始
把一切忘掉
但我并没有那么幸运
我只是想要好好喜欢一个人
我更想对她说一颗心只有一份永久 给了谁就无法回收
但我更怕被她再次拒绝
因为她的一句话
我就从此沉默在绝望的迷宫里
我相信如果在未来的日子里
我再也没有找到能让我值得珍惜的那个人
我也许只能永远活在记忆里
等待消失

Love is a Di****** ?

Recently there are two of my friends one of them is a gal which i think i better dont mention her name coz i dont want to die before i really have the love feeling with any gal. Last time when i asked her anything by this starting "L**** , can u borrow me the tute for the subject........" she will say k no matter she complete it or not but dont noe y since a guy is hardly tackling her since the beginning of this sem and we all already feel that the guy is her bf already but she still dont want to admit it till now . However my main concern is now her reaction when i wanted to borrow anything and now this is her reaction " i cant borrow u coz i not yet complete" and just forget about it . Actually what in my mind is i just wanted to take a look on what u have done only since i saw u did more than me and i dont mind is complete or not but u seems not really willing to borrow the tute to me like last time (sigh) . Another guy which is one of the groupmate for many assignment also started to change and they told me is he is trying to court one of our friend wow . Honestly speaking i also quite confuse should i believe that or not and what i can confirm is he really changed. The way he speak to me really different from last time and the way he handling his assignment also weird and from what i see and heard he seems to be put more effort on the assignment he is doing now with the gal that he wanted to court . Harshly speaking there is no one wanted to back stab him for what he have done (on the effort for courting gal) but atlease he should not left too many thing for the assignments that i need to cover for him especially in last minute and yet he still treat me like that like i m the one talked back of him (Sigh again). For conclusion, i believe love is a beautiful thing but how come the two cases seems to be Love is a Di****** ?

你不是真正的快乐

你不是真正的快乐

人群中哭着

你只想变成透明的颜色

你再也不会梦或痛或心动了

你已经决定了

你已经决定了

你静静忍着紧紧把昨天在拳心握着

而回忆越是甜就是越伤人了

越是在手心留下密密麻麻深深浅浅的刀割

你不是真正的快乐

你的笑只是你穿的保护色

你决定不恨了也决定不爱了

把你的灵魂关在永远锁上的躯壳

这世界笑了

於是你合群的一起笑了

当生存是规则不是你的选择

於是你含着眼泪飘飘荡荡跌跌撞撞的走着

你不是真正的快乐

你的笑只是你穿的保护色

你决定不恨了也决定不爱了

把你的灵魂关在永远锁上的躯壳

你不是真正的快乐

你的伤从不肯完全的癒合

我站在你左侧却像隔着银河

难道就真的抱着遗憾一直到老了

然後才後悔着

你不是真正的快乐

你的笑只是你穿的保护色

你决定不恨了也决定不爱了

把你的灵魂关在永远锁上的躯壳

你不是真正的快乐

你的伤从不肯完全的癒合

我站在你左侧却像隔着银河

难道就真的抱着遗憾一直到老了

你值得真正的快乐

你应该脱下你穿的保护色

为什麽失去了还要被惩罚呢

能不能就让悲伤全部结束在此

刻重新开始活着

Alfred's Birthday at Happy Valley

Alfred celebrated his birthday at Happy Valley . There about 30 of his friends went to the party and i didnt really believe few of us left Happy Valley by almost 12 am. While all of them busying drinking few types of Vodka and etc , i was sitting there doing nothing and i only drink few drops of those liquor with the mixture of sprite. Gary told me something that will happen to all of us that stepped into the civil engineering field and i knew that since long time ago just he added in something that should be an advice for all gals that is all gals must atlease know how to drink some of the liquor in order not easily cheated by guys when they go to work next time (infact he is quite right because there are many cases happened already).

("Chicken" is one of the Alfred's gift)

Normally it is like tis

Normally when i lost interest on "something" that i liked before ,the "something" will always appear and also disappear in fornt of me and if i decided to have interest on the "something " for the second time then the "something" will disappeared again or owned by others and i should say by right now i should started to know my destiny that set by The One and harshly speaking if this is my destiny then i dont think i have any choice beside fulfill it and also accept it .


JFYI : Normally my brain will be running " hair wire "during the end of the year due to the assignments and also final exam , haha XP( not funny)

"Snatched away"

There are many stories about a guy like a girl but there is another guy who try to "snatch" the girl from the very 1st guy eventhough they are in relationship and the second guy seems to be succeed to do so . Harshly speaking if anything like this happened three years ago , for sure i will feel that the second guy should be blamed but nowadays , it seems to be too many cases like this happened already and people around nowadays really feel nothing wrong to do so. There are about two to three friends who told me some of their theory and their feeling about this and one their thinking is "there is no rule such as 1st come 1st serve in love " which also means if u are the 1st one who like a girl it doesnt means the second guy will have no right to "snatch" the girl away from you . Another friend told me that "there is no right or wrong in love" . And some of them even said if the girl u like or love being "snatched away" by another guy it means you have no skills to maintain the relationship. In my opinion , this is an open ended question which has no answer but i do believe different people will have different opinion . However , i think those who have the same thinking like "there is no rule such as 1st come 1st serve in love" and also "there is no right or wrong in love" will have the clearer feeling about that when the snatching cases happened to the girl or the guy that they really love in their life .

JFYI : I NEVER HAVE NO RIGHT TO SAY THE THEORY IS TOTALLY RIGHT OR WRONG SINCE ALL OF THE GIRLS THAT I HAVE FEELING ON THEM ONLY SHOW TWO KIND OF REACTION TO ME THAT ARE REJECTION WHICH CONSIST OF DIRECTLY OR INDIRECTLY AND ALSO ANOTHER REACTION IS FOUND OR BEING COURTED BY ANOTHER GUY . HOWEVER I DO BELIEVE THE THEORY THAT "RICH ALWAYS BECOME RICH BUT POOR ALWAYS MAINTAIN POOR IN LIFE " WHICH ALSO CAN BE RELATED TO " THOSE WHO ALWAYS HAVE GIRLFRIENDS WILL ALWAYS HAVE NEW GIRLFRIENDS BUT THOSE WHO NEVER SUCCEED WILL KEEP ON FAILING IN RELATIONSHIP MATTER"

爱一人,但别让自己为一种伤害

如果你不爱一个人,
请放手.
好让别人有机会爱她.
如果你爱的人放弃了你,
请放开自己,
好让自己有机会爱别人.
有的东西你再喜欢也不会属于你的,
有的东西你再留恋也注定要放弃的.

人生中有许多种 .
但别让自己为一种伤害.
有些缘分是注定要失去的,
有些缘分是永远都不会有好结果的,
爱一个人不一定要拥有,
但拥有一个人就一定要好好的去爱她.
男人哭了是因为他真的爱了.
女人哭了是因为她真的放弃了.

如果真诚是一种伤害,
我选择谎言;
如果谎言一种伤害,
我选择沉默;
如果沉默是一种伤害,
我选择离开.

如果失去是苦，
你怕不怕付出 ,
如果迷乱是苦，
你会不会选择结束,
如果追求是苦，
你会不会选择执迷不悟 ,
如果分离是苦，
你要向谁倾诉,
好多事情都是后来才看清楚,
好多事情当时一点也不觉得苦!!!!

Regarding the songs in the 夏雨诗 ep

I never really listen to the XIn Guang Yi bang songs except Yang Chong Wei and also Yoga songs. Somehow , recently the XIn Guang Shi Sao except Yoga will come out with their Ep and i just realise Peter Pan voice really touching and this Ep really worth to listen to. I rearrange the sequence of the four songs . Firstly, the 心里的狮子 is a song about a person who need to face a lots of Chanllenges and also obstacles to reach his or her destination and this is just like all of our life ".....有陪伴的人不害怕 不害怕的人最潇洒.... " really meaningful coz for sure the person that got another person to accompany him or her wont be really scare of challenges just like a guy or a gal need his or her life partner. Secondly , 夏雨诗 is a song about a guy that broke off wif his gf and then started to miss the gal back . ".......没有了妳叮咛的日子 耳朵总感觉怅然若失 生活上来了又去得了又失是妳给我扶持 不断寻觅错过了几次从来不知爱近在咫尺 回头发现熬过这些日子总有妳的影子........ " is the way he expressed his feeling and he found out that after the gal is gone he started to miss the everything of the gal did for him. Thirdly , 我和妳从未分手 is the song about the guy who expressed his feeling of thinking back the gal and he really hope he never broke off with the gal .This lyrics".......我和妳从未分手 妳住在我心中 谁也不能把妳赶走 一颗心只有一份永久 给了谁就无法回收........" really touching people because i do believe that if a person really love someone for sure his or her heart just like giving to another his or her another one already and it is very hard to take it back .Lastly , 老夫老妻 is the song for the old couple and the song really romantic if u really notice the songs lyrics"...... 时间的手 牵著我们往哪走 走到哪里都有妳陪我 ....." and i believe this is the life everyone hope for next time . For the lump sum , these songs just like a life circle if u really notice it . Afterall the most touching lyrics for me is " ...一颗心只有一份永久 给了谁就无法回收..."

夏雨诗 ep

心里的狮子

一夕改变的命运

一夜长大的必须

渺小的自己 假装平静

巨大的孤寂 却骚动不已

我们紧握著手心

眼睛微笑成星星

在子夜轮替 守护指引

外面太冰冷 就披上风衣

带著站在心里的狮子

穿过更像丛林的城市

没有意志 就没有钥匙

能打开未来做最想做的事

跟著跑在心里的狮子

优雅但却勇敢地尝试

拥有支持 才拥有天使

完成我一个人做不到的事

一夕改变的命运

一夜长大的必须

渺小的自己 假装平静

巨大的孤寂 却骚动不已

我们紧握著手心 眼睛微笑成星星

在子夜轮替 守护指引

外面太冰冷 就披上风衣

带著站在心里的狮子

穿过更像丛林的城市

没有意志 就没有钥匙

能打开未来做最想做的事

跟著跑在心里的狮子

优雅但却勇敢地尝试

拥有支持 才拥有天使

完成我一个人做不到的事

有陪伴的人不害怕

不害怕的人最潇洒

只要迈的步伐够大

被貼的標籤會飛走吧

带著站在心里的狮子

穿过更像丛林的城市

没有意志 就没有钥匙

能打开未来做最想做的事

跟著跑在心里的狮子

优雅但却勇敢地尝试

拥有支持 才拥有天使

完成我一个人做不到的事

夏雨诗

等候在骤来的夏夜暴雨时间突然静止

滂沱的雨势中停泊两段迂回着的心事

忽然间所有的谈笑风生瞬间嘎然而止

靠着我挡着妳风雨之中不让妳被淋湿

我们在这个城市流浪多少日子

从来没有想到有人能够分享妳倾覆的心事

没有了妳叮咛的日子

耳朵总感觉怅然若失生

活上来了又去得了又失是妳给我扶持

不断寻觅错过了几次从来不知爱近在咫尺

回头发现熬过这些日子总有妳的影子

孤独在各自的人生旅途安静或是飞驰

遇见了彼此后两个灵魂不再患得患失

有些话想启齿欲言又止妳耐心等我解释

微笑着不说话把我抱住让我像个孩子

在光阴这趟车上

浪费了多少日子

遇见妳却让过去所有的痛楚通通被稀释

没有了妳叮咛的日子

耳朵总感觉怅然若失

生活上来了又去得了又失是妳给我扶持

不断寻觅错过了几次从来不知爱近在咫尺

回头发现熬过这些日子总有妳的影子

没有了妳倾诉的日子耳朵就感觉怅然若失

生活上来了又去得了又失妳是我的坚持

陪我同游余生的日子

就算走到了穷途末日天涯咫尺在人生的白纸

同愉快地写诗

天涯咫尺在人生的白纸

同愉快地写诗

我和妳从未分手

心是片土地 我是一个园丁

种一朵花叫做爱情

呵护著不离不弃

当花季远去 眼泪带我旅行

妳好吗 我好想妳

常常写信寄给回忆

我和妳从未分手

妳住在我心中

谁也不能把妳赶走

一颗心只有一份永久

给了谁就无法回收

我和妳从未分手

妳活在我爱中 不准人来人往挑拨

一个错要花几倍伤痛

才能扭转时空 重回感动 重回笑容 手牵手

空空的夜空 城市燃起灯火

每一盏灯一种寂寞

愿妳幸福别漂流

蓝蓝的忧愁 搬进我的生活

越想放手越是紧握

越往前走越是回头

我和妳从未分手 妳住在我心中

谁也不能把妳赶走

一颗心只有一份永久

给了谁就无法回收

我和妳从未分手

妳活在我爱中

不准人来人往挑拨

一个错要花几倍伤痛

才能扭转时空 重回感动 重回笑容 手牵手

我没用 多没用 我推开窗户思念一直推不走

我在梦里掉了一个梦

誰撿到告訴我還給我 別沒收

我和妳从未分手 妳住在我心中

谁也不能把妳赶走

一颗心只有一份永久

给了谁就无法回收

我和妳从未分手 妳活在我爱中

不准人来人往挑拨

一个错要花几倍伤痛

才能扭转时空

重回感动 重回笑容 手牵手

老夫老妻

我能为妳试著聊星座

妳却不肯陪我看棒球

从前会计较谁付出的多 现在却变成乐在其中

时间的手 牵著我们慢慢走

终於找到和谐的节奏

我不再浪漫 妳也不再温柔

却能异口同声的说想吃些什麼

贴心的小动作 尽在不言中

默契随著时间更深厚

原来老夫老妻真不错

我做的饭妳嫌西嫌东

妳开车时换我变萝唆

生活中的芝麻和绿豆

淡是淡些回味却无穷

时间的手 牵著我们往哪走 走到哪里都有妳陪我

我不在浪漫 妳也不在温柔

却能同时欢呼说今晚星星好多

很幸福的感受 尽在不言中

白头发的情人和朋友 原来老夫老妻真不错

我少了拥抱 妳也少了撒娇

却能成为彼此最坚定的依靠

再牵著妳的手 少了点悸动

却多了份安心和感动

原来老夫老妻真不错 穷

ProblemS ?

I dont noe should i consider this as a serious problem but definitely for me it is a problem and i dont think my problem wont be a problem to anyone who is single or never has gf before now and before(i guess those who read it carefully should noe what is the problem already). All my friends reaction when i mentioned this problem is " dont think too much " or " are u too desperate to have gf ? " . Harshly speaking if i dont think much now i scare next time i dont have any chance to think anymore and the second question comment will be i dont want to end up alone next time (but it seems i also cant do much liao after ended up dissappointed for many time by not even have a chance to start anything ) because i never believe what u all theory which is " try to worry next time lal and also go gf when you are working lal". I definitely think this only work in 20 years ago and it wont work for now and also future . I dont think all teenagers now will be brave enough to really take this action by not really in relationship with someone they like now,despite, they hope that when they started to step into the work field they will found someone they really love or someone that really love them ( i noe this sill can be happened but the probabilty for this to happen is quite low lol in this era). From what i analysis , nowadays the average age for a teenagers to be in relationship for the very 1st time is 16 years old. If they are lucky enough for sure they will continue the relationship until happily ever after (i believe the probabilty for this to happen is higher than the previous probability). Then if every couple also ended happily ever affer like that then how about those still dont have gf and also "plan to have gf when they working wow" for sure those who follow that principle will get nothing lol and then how lel ?( maybe this is an open ended question but i still believe my analysis still will hit some correct points )

Another time again

haha , another time again , i noticed that the someone that i feel very cute will have bf soon or by now and i think the curse on me is quite true already (only some of my friends noe that). Harshly speaking i think i have the right to feel sad althogh this is not the 1st time happened to me coz all friends know my zero record of having gf ( such a failure ) . Anyway , today swinburne carnival really not much people and i was stupid enough not to take pictures after i received two impaction which are i also lazy to mention coz i mentioned already in the opening and the another one is the UWR project thing .Speechless